So it's been a while...

...a really long while since i have written, and a lot has happened.

Late August, i started school at csu fullerton. crazy me thought that it would be super easy to go to school full-time and work full-time. I'm trying to be a child and adolescent development major. I really enjoy it, have taken my cbest test so that i could substitute teach if i wanted... but i'm just hoping to get past this semester. now that all the tests and everything are starting to roll around i am finding it harder to have time to study, work, and spend whatever time i can with mike. i would really like to get this job that is opening up at my work... but i doubt that i will get it. i don't have experience, which sucks. but, i'm going to try anyway.

then a few weeks ago marked the 1 year date of charly passing. the weirdest thing was that the week leading up to it was actually harder than the day itself. i truthfully though feel scared everytime i leave the house because i am always afraid that i will never see mike again. i have always been apprehensive of the whole idea of death because of what i knew would come of charly. but, i thought that after this happening i would be somewhat relieved, but it has only made me more trepid. i can't help it, but i feel like everyday i am living in a silent fear.

then mike and me moved into our new apartment, and i love it there. it is more spacious than our last one, has a way bigger patio, and... the best of all... AN ATTACHED GARAGE!!! dun dun dun!! i was all excited when i went to ikea because now our apartment actually matches the other rooms. and i get to have my little plants, even if i catch the cats every now and then trying to eat them.



so yeah, basically i've been super stressed but hopeful of the future to come.